Two years ago today we found out our 16 week baby no longer had a heartbeat. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to cope with. It still hurts. I still miss the life that never was to be.
Two years later, I'm glad I didn't know then how hard all of this would continue to be.
Makes me wonder what the future will hold. Makes me wonder if I'd want to know. Makes me wonder if it will ever be easier.
Sometimes I can be grateful for what I have, sometimes I wish things were so different.
Friday, January 25, 2008
24 Months
Posted by Carrie at 8:33 AM
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carrie, it's not ungrateful to be upset with the universe because its handed you, more than once, a horrific experience. and kept from you what you need, deep in your gut, to be happy. it is what it is....sucky.
the universe owes you big and it's about time it hands it to you.
so fvckin unfair. this infertility business.
xoxoxo
i'm very sorry for your loss, carrie.
There really aren't any perfect words to say. Only I'm sorry. Hugs to you my friend.
carrie, I'm so sorry. what can I say but me too and I know what you mean. and it sucks sucks sucks. thinking of you today. ~luna (and many thanks for your very kind comments)
You've just been through so much my friend, and I hope that we're as supportive to you as you are to us - cuz you're great. Even when things suck for you, you're there for us. Hang in there.
Time can be a healer and it can hurt too. I feel for you Carrie. Let's hope the next 24 is much happier xx
Carrie,
I am so sorry for all you have had to endure.
xx
J
I'm so sorry.. rest in peace little angel.
Sometimes when I'm at my worst I think "In a year, this won't seem so awful."
Then I found infertility & miscarriage and found that sometimes that isn't so true.
It was awful then and is awful now.
None of us deserve this.
I'm so very sorry for your loss. This date is a painful one for both of us, unfortunately. No one should have to go through the pain of something like that. My love to you. XOXO
So sorry for your loss and for the pain you still have. I hope that each passing day, month and year brings you more healing.
carrie... i am thinking of you..
"Sometimes I can be grateful for what I have, sometimes I wish things were so different." This statement hit my feelings today right on the head. It is exactly how I feel right now.
xoxoxox
Tracey~
You really don't know how hard the rest will be until the time passes. I am sorry for your loss.
Carrie, I admire your strength. You have had enough loss and pain. I'm so sorry.
I look forward to hearing about this upcoming journey. Let '08 be a very, very different year!
Sending you some peace and love my friend. It is not fair, what the universe has put you through. I believe that you will find your true happiness. I just wish with all of my heart that it could be sooner and not later. Later has lasted long enough.
I'm so very sorry Carrie. I can't imagine how hard it must be to have come so close to having a baby and dealing with the 'what might have been's'.
Sending you a hug and hoping you feel a little better soon.
Also, thank you for your comment to me.
Thinking of you during this hard time xo
I tagged you lady - work work work! :-)
Hopefully you're feeling better than you were during this post - I just wanna make you laugh:-)
Hi Carrie. I know its been awhile but I just wanted to see how you are doing and thanks for checking up on me? I'm so sorry for all you've had to endure. I know I feel the same way sometimes and thinking about the future scares me now. I used to never be like this...!
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