Thank you all so much for your warm and lovely comments. I realise that reading of someone else's pregnancy, even if you are pleased for them, is a difficult thing to do. I know that some of you are going through really tough times at the moment and I can't tell you how much I appreciate you being so upbeat over here. Hats off.
I've been in London so I've missed what's going on. My mum was driving down to see my brother's new house and help out a little. When she initially made the plans I couldn't go as I'd be in the middle of stims. After this turn of events, and due to the fact that I was driving my husband mad with my continual obsessing, I decided to join her. It wasn't an easy decision as I was so terrified of something going wrong while we were away. Mr L thought it might be a good distraction though and help pass some time.
I'm glad I went although it was difficult to keep up a normal front. Those of you who have had miscarriages will appreciate the sheer terror that early pregnancy brings. Every lack of symptom or twinge sends me running to the toilet. I lie in bed at night praying that this will be the one, that its still ok. It is hard.
We don't have betas over here. They just don't do them. I have no way of knowing how this pregnancy is going. On Sunday night I was convinced it was all over. Boobs not sore therefore vanishing pregnancy signs. On Monday I made an excuse to go into town. I did (yet another) pregnancy test in the toilets in Debenhams. Classy, huh? The pregnancy line came up instantly and was way darker than the control line. That's all I have to go on but it did make me feel a little better. The sore boobs also returned.
I have a GP appointment on Monday and my scan is the following Monday. I will be 7 weeks and 1 day by the scan date (by my dates, 7 weeks 6 days by LMP) I can't tell you how far away that seems to me right now.
I hope I can make it, and without going mad would be quite a bonus.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
I Wish I Had a Crystal Ball
Posted by Carrie at 4:14 PM
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I am totally out-of-touch with how your health system works but I am certain that you can find an OB or a maternal fetal specialist that will give you a little extra care. If you haven't done so already, research the "tender loving care miscarriage studies" done in Europe. Amazing results just because clinics helped recurrent m/c sufferers manage their newly-pregnant situations. Get in touch with your bossy self and demand extra scans for piece of mind! That being said, I always get a little shy about this, too, because I don't want to be a pain in the ass to the doctors.
I would think you would get special treatment after your losses. At the very least they should push the scan up a couple days. They can generally see a heartbeat by 6.5 weeks. I imagine a few days is a big difference for you.
I'm like ms. planner in that I don't know how your health system works, but I'm really of the mindset that it never hurts to ask - all they can say is no. Ask for it earlier, explain why, and if they say no, ask someone else. You just might get a yes! And a couple days being a pain in teh ass might buy you a lot more days of sanity:-)
Oh, gee, I understand.
When I was preggers, I felt nothing and freaked for an entire trimester.
I second the first poster, there *must* be a way to get a beta and help give you reassurance.
And the scan will help, too.
All I can say to try and reassure you is that the symptoms DO come and go. And I'm not just saying that. I always thought people were just saying that to make me feel better but it really is true. I've had many panic stricken google-ified days when suddenly my boobs weren't sore anymore etc, but so far its turned out to be okay. And I hope the time hurries the heck up till your scan so you can set your mind at ease. Still so excited for you! x
Echoing Ms. Planner, I don't know how your heath care system works, but I hope you're able to get some reassurance one way or the other. Hang in there.
Oh you poor thing, I remember that limbo-hell only too well....
I hope that your scan comes around quickly! x
Shame man, not having beta's is not nice. Praying that everything keeps going well and you'll see your little on with a heartbeat soon. It's seems that the waiting never ends eh?
Carrie,
Thanks for your comment on my blog.
I wish you all the best for this pregnancy. I can only imagine the stress that you feel knowing that you have to wait so long for an u/s.
I'll be back to check up on you. Hang in there!
Something Julie's husband Paul at alittlepregnant said long time ago really resonates with me, I'm paraphrasing, but it was basically that the scans and blood tests only tell you the past, they don't predict the future. I know, easy to be zen when it's not you. We're in the same boat. I'm thinking good thoughts for both of us.
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